\\TBB\ iQuit week one.

I never taught that my previous message in the bottle would get so much support and attention from so many people, who have nothing to do with me except they, their family members or their friends went down the same road I am heading to.
Thank you! When my office mates went outside to smoke, when I was waking up, thinking, that I need another cig, and many, many similar occasions It helped, that someone supports me.

"You can complain because roses have thorns, or you can rejoice because thorns have roses" - so I will not whip myself for last three days of smoking few cigarettes. After all, I had kept myself from this deadly habit for three days. And I am ready to start over, learnt from my previous mistakes...

First day was not hard, I went to doctor, and she motivated my a lot by saying how her father quit after 20 years of smoking, she also said, that first three weeks will be full of mental breakdowns, insomnia, hunger and other things. "Now you will feel the real damage of smoking, you will feel yourself what it takes for your system to rebuild". It was nice talking with her, and when I said, that I have insomnia and I would like to have few days off the work, she said, that she is unable to get me a sick leave, but she will prescribe some pills to calm myself down and get to sleep. I was always against these pills, but I taught, I will see how much it costs, and if its not more than pack of cigarettes (~3 USD in my country) I will buy them just in case. I bought them, it was one plate of 10 pills, and when I read the name of the drugs I had no idea, until two days later I was on my way home and heard Eminem's song "My Mom" . The name of pills my doctor was prescribing and the name of pills Eminem's mother was giving to him are the same - "XANAX".
No, thank you, I kept it for few days to show my friends, and today I threw it away, never drank a single pill, turns out, It was opposite - for first days without cigarettes I was sleeping as a bear.

And last friday we had xmas party at the work, and I was saying to my colleagues, that I will not come, because I am avoiding alcohol and etc. They were all persuading me, that its ok, if i smoked for once, I did, and after that I brought a pack, smoked few cigarettes, threw it away, next day in the evening did the same, and same thing today. The good thing is that during these three days, I smoked not more than one pack, and compared to 20 cigarettes a day, for years and years in a row, thats a win!

So I will stay positive. Last week was a small victory, hopefully one day it will compile nicely in my great battle.